Reality is less appealing than fiction

[Barnabas]

Thanks Larry for sharing that testimony. That is a big achievement!  What many don't understand is that even if you did have a relapse, it doesn't negate the 2 years of freedom.  The goal is to live in freedom rather than addiction as much as possible. If we do have a relapse, we deal with it, identify the triggers, get help, and start living in freedom again.

I encourage you to keep reading the posts on my blog.  You also may want to join one of the groups connected to this site for more encouragement and connection to other guys struggling with the same thing.

If you are a Christian, we have a prayer group here - https://healingfromcrossdressing.org/prayer-group/
If you are not a Christian or not religious, I am starting a more general recovery group soon, stay posted on the main site for details about that.