Identity - How do you call yourself?

[keith]

In the past, when thinking I have often called my self girl, as in "you could have done that better girl" or "thats not a good look girl" I dont think I ever did this out loud, unless I was dressed up. I did go out several times to a group, where I used feminine pronouns and my female name Kathy. 

I am trying to break this habit since deciding to stop crossdressing but still find it slips easily and unbidden into my thoughts. Hopefully this will get less as my journey back to masculinity continues.